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· 03.04.2022 · 09:00:02 ··· ··· Sunday ·· 7 (0)
Disneyfanpage 1409 Hi, it’s been a while, how are you guys doing?
Well I am doing horrible…
I had hoped that this week and this day would first come in a few years but now we are here.
My grandma passed away this Monday unexpectedly and I am so broken. I don’t know what I’m gonna do. She was so close to me and one of the people I love and desire most in this world.
She was sick but not so sick that we thought she would pass away. She was 87 years old and got pneumonia (if that’s the right word in English) a few weeks ago. She was rushed to the hospital and had to stay for awhile, she got home a few days later and had to eat antibiotics. I talked to her on 19 march and she said she felt better and fine. That was the last time I talked to her I think💔
She passed this Monday, 28th of march. My dad called me around 7 pm and was stressed that my grandma didn’t answer her phone, I tried to calm him and say that her phone was struggling (her phone is bad and usually doesn’t work) I was on the phone with him when he went home to my grandma, she lives 30 minutes from our town in the forest. And my dad arrives and sees her room still has the curtains down, that’s when he realized for the first time that the worst had come, well he had check cameras before arriving and seen the bedroom half closed and dark so he had realized two times already.
I am still on the phone with him when he runs up the house and finds her there, in her bed, cold and blue on her lips. I’m on the other side of the phone just hears my dads heartbreaking screams when he finds her. And that’s when my whole world just crashed…
My mom drove me and my sister to my grandma just 30 minutes later, I had screamed to my dad to call the ambulance and he did. When we arrived they where there but it wasn’t anything they could have done. At first I didn’t wanna go up and see her but I thought I would regret not seeing her in the future so I went up to her bedroom and saw her. Even tho it was horrible to see my adorable grandma laying there lifeless it was still calming. Because she seemed so peaceful and calm, she almost smiled. My mom even said that she had her hands up like babies have when they feel safe. And the doctor said that everything went fast and that she died because of natural causes or pneumonia and that it didn’t hurt, she didn’t feel any pain and passed in her sleep around 4 am - 6 am. So that’s what I’m taking with me.
But it’s still super hard to imagine her not being here in this world. I had a super close relationship to her and called almost everything other Thursday when we came to my dads place. But I am so sad and regretful that I didn’t go to her two weeks ago when I had the chance, I studied and played Minecraft with my sister instead of meeting my grandma for the last time. I am so mad at myself that I was so selfish and lazy to go to her, but I didn’t know.
So I just wanted to share this story with you guys because I am slowly breaking down here. I have been crying everyday and I can’t focus on school or anything.
So please everyone, hug your grandparents, mom, dad and everyone you love because you don’t know when they will be gone, I learned that lesson this week💔
I just wanted to say that I will probably take a break from YouTube to heal and to focus on school, I don’t know if I will have the energy to edit or do anything so please respect it. I may be editing if I feel good but I wouldn’t expect that. I am so sorry to be gone again but I really need it this time. But I will always answer your comments💕
I wanted to write some things to my grandma here:
Swedish:
Älskade farmor, tack för alla dessa fina år tillsammans, jag älskar dig så mycket och du har gjort mig till en bättre människa. Jag är inte den som tror på andra sidan och sånt men jag hoppas nu att det finns en värld efter denna som du kan leva fint i, utan smärta och oro. Du sa till mig en gång att inte sörja dig för mycket men det kommer bli svårt, du kommer alltid vara saknad och så älskad av alla runt omkring dig. Tack tack för allt farmor, du är mitt allt❤️ Din Matilda
English:
Beloved grandmother, thank you for all these wonderful years together, I love you so much and you have made me a better person. I'm not the one who believes in the other side and stuff after death but I now hope that there is a world after this that you can live nicely in, without pain and worry. You once told me not to grieve too much but it will be difficult, you will always be missed and so loved by everyone around you. Thank you thank you for everything grandmother, you are my everything❤️
Your Matilda
I hope I got everything I wanted to say in the description and sorry for any mistakes
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